I'm Engaged!

Sunday morning, August 16, 2015, at approximately 6:15 in the morning, I got engaged.  My boyfriend (that sounds weird when you're in your 50s), who I'll call "Enzo", asked me to marry him while we were watching the sun rise on the beach.  I had just rolled out of bed, and I was not looking my best, but he asked me anyway.  When I said, "I look terrible!" he said that is the best time to ask.  Really?  That's how men think. Go figure.

Even though I am very happy and absolutely thrilled to be engaged to him, over the past few days I've been thinking that I never in my life thought I'd be engaged at 51.  Its not that I haven't ever been married before, this will actually be my third marriage.  My first marriage ended in divorce simply because we were too young, and my second marriage ended because my husband passed away from cancer.  

However, two marriages means that I've already had two weddings.  My first one was the big blow-out.  The wedding where the bride and groom don't even personally know everyone who is there.  I wore a fluffy white dress and a veil, and bridesmaids wore jewel-toned dresses with big giant bows on their hips and in their hair. (Hey, what can I say?  It was the 80s!)  My second wedding was smaller - only 80 people - but it was a more sophisticated affair.  I wore a cream colored beaded straight gown and tiny white rosebuds in my hair, which was styled into an up-do.  My only attendant was my sister, who picked out her own gown, and my little niece (who is now 21).  So, what do I do for my third?  A question I never thought I'd ever have to ponder.

I've been thinking about it.  I've thought of everything from a big wedding with all the trimmings (we both have big families) to a small chapel in Las Vegas with an Elvis impersonator as the officiant; and everything in between.  When I asked my fiance, he said whatever I want is what he wants.  He said he didn't even care if we went down to city hall.  

For now, I've decided not to think about it.  I figure that one day it will just "come to me". I've only been engaged for six days, so I'm just going to bask in that high for a while, because I have the feeling that even though I've already done it twice, planning this wedding is going to be an experience.